Drunk Squirrel

Being someone who doesn't necessarily have a plan for everything and would rather go with the flow instead of doing routines, also my definition of a Wanderer, life can get pretty hectic when your inner organizer decides that it no longer likes you when you need it most. I always lived life as a Wanderer. I've always liked being able to have freedom, being independent, being oblivious to situations or events that I didn't know was going to happen. That last part doesn't always apply, especially when you are in a group project with a bunch of deadbeats who contribute nothing!!! 

Let me give a better example of what I am. So, think of a person who has life figured out, knows exactly what he or she will do months in advance, constantly prepared for every situation that comes to them. Think of them as an alligator. Why an alligator you ask? Because I can. But it makes sense they are an alligator because if you paid attention to survival shows, if you happen to encounter a wild, angry alligator, you should run zigzagily instead of running straight in front of them. That'a because that's common sense. Who would honestly run in a straight line the entire time something is chasing you? People who likes to die horrible deaths, that's who. But anyway, alligators run in a straight line and it's hard for them to actually turn on a dime. That's why I say the prepared and organized are alligators. It would probably be really hard for them to go outside of the line they made themselves and zigzagging is like forbidden danger zone to them.

Now, for those people who would rather eat a a day old mayo sandwich than get out of a bed at noon, those who wait until 30 minutes before something is due to do it, those who blindly run their lives like cockroaches when the lights are on, we are more like drunk squirrels. Drunk Squirrels who can't find their nuts they buried 2 seconds ago. Drunk Squirrels who suddenly run back to the side of the street they came when the are only 2 inches away. This is our spirit animal. They are majestic, confused, possibly small brained creatures who can't seem to figure anything out. We zigzag around the alligators and let them know that we like being a drunk squirrel because it's fun and we live dangerous. 

Pros of living that Drunk Squirrel/Wanderer life:
1.) Doing whatever you want like steal other squirrels' nuts
2.) Not having to worry about routines and doing the same, boring thing all the time
3.) May tend to take more risks and adventurous
4.) You tend to be creative when solving problems; thinking outside of the box5.) Standing in the middle of the road and laugh while people go crazy trying not to run you over (results may vary)

Cons of living that Drunk Squirrel/Wanderer life:
1.) Not being able to have a more organized life, can lead to chaos and stress
2.) Sometimes get lost in trying to find a way to plan when is needed the most
3.) Wandering for too long, especially by yourself, can get a little lonely
4.) Wandering is not always a happy path 5.) You can't find the nuts you just buried, again

I like being a Drunk Squirrel, I'm used to it. But there are plenty of times when I feel like I get too lost in it and everything around me gets way out of control. I just feel like I'm a walking contradiction most times. I like to hang out with people and have fun BUT I sometimes just don't want to be around people and then whine that I'm tired of always being by myself. I like to sit alone like somewhere on a bus BUT sometimes kind of feel rejected when nobody sits with me. I go out of my way to do everything for a person and expect nothing in return BUT subconsciously want that person to thank me for what I did. It's a confusing way to live. I am a very disorganized person who can't seem to get things in my life in order. I forget to do some important things that could affect some outcomes of the near future and I just get too lazy or distracted when I have it right in front of my face. I realized in my time of being in college that high school never prepared me for it. 

I always breezed by high school, being fed by my teachers, and getting A's for barely doing anything. I often times didn't feel motivated in high school and that smacked me in the face once I came to college. Lack of motivation, I feel, is a dangerous thing to not have because basically everything you do requires some amount of motivation. From taking out the trash to making your bed to putting a big, juicy bacon cheeseburger into your mouth, all that needs motivation in order for that to happen. How do you obtain motivation when you have little to none of it? If you find that answer, let me know. I don't know what could put motivation in me, honestly, I don't know why lack of motivation is big issue with me. I'm trying to become a person who helps out others by educating them and hopefully become a role model that they said inspired them. That should be plenty enough motivation to last forever. But it's not. 

Being a Drunk Squirrel/Wanderer has changed for me throughout the years. When I was younger, I never paid attention to the effects of being a hardcore Drunk Squirrel because I knew that I had backups that guaranteed I would temporarily be an Alligator. Since I've gotten older and a little bit more aware of what it's like being a human, I see that I don't always have back ups. I'm not always guaranteed second chances, and even if I was, it would soon fade at some point. Kind of a scary thought but it's a facts of life that I should probably get use to because life isn't always the nicest. It's hard thinking of a plan to become more of an Alligator or at least have some of their qualities that would def help me out more often.  If only I could discover the key of succeeding life then I would be set but what are the odds of that happening. Probably the same as a Drunk Squirrel finding that dang nut it still can't find!!!